HOLY HATE MY JOB TODAY BATMAN!
Nothing new about Mom on this one...just work venting.
Test today. Calm, quiet day....NOT.
Actually, all day was fine, until last period. What is wrong with these kids!
What are they eating???? Do they sleep??? Is someone injecting them with hormones?
It was a disaster. Two girls arguing. Another called me a bitch. I earned my crappy income today, boy.
I did not stay very calm. I reached my limit. I thought I had with these same girls two weeks ago, nope, I hadn't. I'm donzo. And if you push so hard that even I am not on your side and will work with you....that's pretty bad. The kids put me right up there with counselors and the social worker. I want them in class, I want to help them. I am willing to give chances, talk it out. Not anymore.
I guess what makes it particularly hard to swallow is that I was looking forward to focusing on school this year. And I am....but it's not a happy place. Attucks is just not what it was...the program is going down hill. It's really sad.
For years I have known that I wanted to try something different, but with the economy being a mess I was happy to have a job. Then I came to love teaching again and wanted to stay. Now, I don't know. I just don't know.
Makes my heart hurt.
I'll work it out, I always do. Meanwhile, I am just going to vent, complain, whine, whatever I have to do to survive.
Lar,
ReplyDeleteThis too shall pass. You are an amazing teacher and I remember when you got the job at Attucks. You have worked your butt off. Keep your head up and try to remember why you chose to do this in the first place....even before sunnyside :) love you girl!
Thanks, Moll. I have been thinking about those early Attucks years. I can remember them clearly. Good times at work and home. You're right, it will pass. I mean 6 months ago I saw myself staying home to take care of Mom....perspective right? Love you, too!
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