Finding the wind for my wings (I couldn't help myself-giggles)

School has started. Just finished Week 2. Holy Busy Batman! Crispus Attucks no longer as a block schedule, we are back to 8 classes per day....man, we were spoiled. I am beat down! On my feet more, talking more. The entire staff is saying the same things. Tired, over planning, lots to grade.
The cherry on top is that I have wayyy more students than I am supposed to have. Title I equals 15 kids per class....that would be 80-90 kids...I have 140. The regular classes have upwards of 200. It is nuts. The building is packed with stinky teenagers.

Got caught up on grades this weekend. Everything else is organized. Good to go. Eating decently. Sleeping good. If I can keep this up I will be just fine. I think it will take me a few more weeks to really get used to the new schedule.

One of the reasons I have been able to really focus on school is I am not so distracted with Mom all the time. She is doing VERY well. She has really turned a corner. The daily calls been decreasing. I can go several days without hearing from her...then I have to call because I am worried. The first time it happened I tried to stay positive, but I was just sure that she was going to be a mess. I went to visit. She was completely fine. Watching TV, doing a crossword, happy.  She does have days when she has to call several times, but typically not until the afternoon. That is when the 'sundowning' hits.

A remedy for her bad days has been to have a few snacks, make sure her blood sugar is stable. It really works. So I stocked her with some snacks, juice and tea. Not only does it help her through a rough patch, but she is sleeping better as well. Her 8pm snack really does the trick. She also has continued hanging out with friends and participating in a variety of activities. She is also playing solitaire, listening to CDs, and just enjoying life. I am proud of her. I know it has been hard, but she really is being positive and not letting the scary part rule her.

I am getting better too. I have not stepped back into the world of the living completely....work has been my focus. But, I miss my friends and I need to get out more. I have always been quite a hermit with random chunks of years where I was a Drinking/Dancing Queen. I'll get there eventually. I do things in my own time, always have. A big part of my 'staying in' is not wanting to talk. I talk all day, talk to my Mom, and when I have free time I just want to shut the fuck up. Watch a movie. Drift into another world. Distraction. What I really need is a vacation. Beach. Or mountains. For 2-3 weeks.
Ahhhh, it's good to dream.

Damn. I keep forgetting we really need to start planning this wedding we want to have next summer. Stupid party planning. Boo hiss. I do, I do...party....then VACATION. I cannot wait to spend that time with Ben. Just the two of us. Nothing to get in our way. It's going to be wonderful. So if we can get our shit together, my dream vacation with Ben will actually happen!

For right now, I need to prepare for another Monday.