Gill T. Pharasick

This past year I did a lot of reading about how caregivers survive being a caregiver.

From being a full-time caregiver to where I am now with Mom living at AG I have read professional works, funny stories and advice from others all over the country going through exactly what I was experiencing. I was truly surprised at how helpful all of that reading was for me.

I have been able to get back to normal this school year. I can go to all the meetings because I don't have to rush over to AG to spend time with Mom everyday. I have started an anti-bullying club and it is going well. I can attend games and get all my work done. Unfortunately all of my time and energy is devoted to school. My house is a disaster and I have not seen Mom as much as I'd like. Hence, the title of this entry. I am feeling very guilty about that. Yes, I know I have to do what I have to do. I am also dealing with Mom's house and that is taking some of my time.  Everything is OK. But, I still feel guilty. I can't help it.

I am looking forward to this week-Thanksgiving Break. Have the whole week off. I will be able to spend time with Mom.

On a positive note, Mom is doing well. She is happy. I was worried the change in weather and thus change in her routine would be difficult for her. It was a tiny bit, not sitting on porch with friends hit hard. But, all the residents are working out  a new routine.  The lounge is now more of a hot spot. There are also many more activities during the winter season, for that same reason.

Autumn Glen really has been amazing. Mom loves the employees and residents. A smaller facility is exactly what  Mom needed. The feeling of that building when you walk in is very comforting. I knew it the first time I went for a visit with Ben. Just felt right.

All in all I guess I can't complain. Or rather shouldn't. This blog, after all, is partly me complaining and venting. Life is stable, and for me right now, that is enough. Lots still to do regarding Mom. I'll take stability over excitement for the moment. Stability allows me to sleep. I need lots of sleep! Ben says I smile a very big and particular smile when I am in bed. He says it really is my 'happy place.'
It's true. I'm bed right now and I am totally content.

I think I have written about my love for my bed before. See, I do truly LOVE my bed. 

Giggle.